I was getting ready to do my work for the day when I received this message:
As you begin your work, hold onto the unwavering belief that you can make a difference in the lives of others.
So many times I am plagued by the belief that I am not that useful or that others are more useful than me. I can see that these are fear-based, ego driven ideas to keep me safe from the possibility of failing at trying to help others.
The Universe preemptively got me in a positive frame of mind this morning!
This is an inspirational story about a conversation I had with my six year old about God.
Yesterday I was putting the kids to bed when we were talking about managing our energy. I was teaching them about how kids can be very hyper if they don’t learn how to manage their energy.
All of a sudden Cedric blurted out, “I know what God is!”
“Oh really?” I said.
“Yeah! God is a big massive ball of energy!” Cedric said as he raised both of his arms to make a huge circular gesture.
“What makes you think that?” Feeling rather amused. I don’t think we talked about this before.
“I don’t know, I’m going to start imagining energy moving through my body now.” He said as he pulled up his blanket and got ready for dreamland.
I had a conversation today with my friend and accountability partner and he shared an inspirational story about attracting money.
“I need to have a full roster of clients.” My friend said to me.
“Why?” I asked, “How can that help you?”
“I have a lot of financial obligations.” He said.
“Why don’t you just ask the Universe for what you want?” I said.
“That’s a good idea, let’s try that! Universe! I would like $50,000 by August 1st.” He said.
“That might not be specific enough, what do you need this money for?” I asked.
“We have some vet bills…debts we need to pay.” He said.
“You know, the Universe doesn’t care how the money comes to you. Sometimes, it means your ability to access loans.” I said.
Two Weeks Later
“You know, I have a confession to make.” My friend said.
“What happened?” I asked.
“My wife’s stepdad called and said, ‘Hey thanks for paying me back!’ He offered to loan us $5000 a while ago to help us out and $5000 recently appeared on his bank account. But the thing is, we didn’t send him any money.” My accountability partner said with a chuckle.
“You mean the exact sum of money that you your wife’s stepdad just showed up in the bank account out of nowhere.” I said.
“Yeah, pretty much! That’s not even it. My sister offered to pay for our family vacation we go together every year. That’s another $3000 I don’t have to pay.” He added.
“Wow! So what do you want to do this week for your business?” I asked.
“I need to get hired so that I can make some much needed money!”
“Don’t you see that the Universe often has other plans as to where the money comes from?”
When I was setting my own goals for this coming week, I also made a similar mistake, I wrote, “Show me a way I can help people while making good money!”
Surely, this would be the dream of every person. Do something they like to help others and make good money from it. But as soon as I wrote down my goal, I heard an amusing voice in my head:
Inner Wisdom (IW): Those are two different things you know.
May: What do you mean by that?
IW: How you help people and how money flows to you can be two different things. You may find an amazing way to help people, but that may not be the way you make a lot of money. However, that is not to say that you would not be presented with a lot of money. The truth is money doesn’t come from where YOU want it to come from. Don’t tell the Universe where you want the money to come from. They really do know better. Pay attention to how you can serve others, and let the Universe work its magic to bring abundance to you.
Today I had a really hard time training my nanny. It was like I have to train someone from the ground up. I came back from a grocery shopping trip with some canned artichokes and she asked me, “Can you tell me where to put these cans?”
“Where do you think you would put them?” I asked, hoping to see moments of brilliance.
“Er…maybe a good place to put them would be in the fridge?” She replied cautiously.
I think I just wanted to scream.
Later at night I decided to write my Dear Universe Journal and see what my strange mind comes up with:
May: I feel so frustrated with my new nanny. How does she not know that you don’t need to put cans in the fridge?
Answer: At least she is working. You just sit around and complain about her.
M: Who is this? (The frequency seem different this time) Who are you?
A: The commander of a Star Vehicle.
M: Why are you chiming in? (This is none of your business…)
A: You have a lot of work to do.
M: What kind of work?
A: Janitorial work.
A: People call it clearing or cleaning or whatever you do for others.
M: So what am I? Some kind of Galactic Janitor?
M: Hey! Why can’t I be the commander and YOU come and do some Janitorial work? Huh? Are you smarter and more knowledgeable than me or something?
A: There are no levels and comparisons in this dimension. You CHOSE to be a Galactic Janitor, don’t Blame me!
M: Huh? Am I supposed to clean up after people?
A: You need to clean more than just people! You are not that hard working you know, where are your writing and meditations?
M: I’m cleaning all the time, 24/7, even when I sleep! Give me a break!
A: You can clean better, you need to be more detail oriented when you
M: The pay for a Janitor is not exactly high…
A: No levels remember? Galactic Janitors are very well paid.
M: And what currencies do you use huh? (Still feeling like a brat)
A: You get paid in L…O…V…E! It is the Universal Currency (UC)! It comes directly from the Source and not from your clients. That’s one thing most humans have not figured out yet…
M: What haven’t they figured out?
A: The money don’t always come from clients. They try to get paid in all the wrong ways and find love in all the wrong places. The best way out of the rat race is LOVE! Love that comes directly from Source. I can guarantee that there will be no glass ceiling on that!
M: Is there a currency exchange place where I can convert the Universal Currency to a locally accepted currency and method of payment?
A: The Universal Currency is accepted at all locations, dimensions, and beyond.
M: Forget about the Galactic Janitorial work, I just want to sit around and watch figure skating!
A: You will have plenty of chances to do THAT! Now get back to work Cinderella!
M: Oh Man!
I guess that is what happens when I complain.
I am in the process of designing a series of what I call Functional Meditations. These meditations are designed to help you access your own inner wisdom in a variety of situations. The first one I am in the process of creating is a meditation to help people deal with their inner critic. I came up with this idea while attending a personal development course. During a group share exercise, I was blown away by how many people would beat themselves up by criticizing themselves over little things. For example, there were some technical challenges with a virtual meeting and the organizer and group leader was bashing himself for being so disorganized.
I am also not immune to my own inner critic. I lose motivation and momentum just like many other people do. When fear and ego take over me, I find it hard to see the bright side of life that is full of possibilities. I need my own functional meditations as much as anyone else. The way we can easily access our inner wisdom is through inspired questions. Sometimes, I am clear headed enough to ask my own inspired actions, sometimes, I am too far into inner critic land to ask inspired questions. So, I decided to see if I could create a functional meditation that would overcome my own limitations.
Let’s talk about my own inner critict. One of the biggest fears and doubts I have is that no one would care about what I write and speak about. I fear that all my friends would think I am crazy and ignore me. What’s the point of writing a blog or doing a video if no one wants to read it or watch it? So I began to listen to the first recording of my Dissolve Your Inner Critic meditation. I started out by narrowing down my inner critic’s voice to one sentence or concept such as, “No one will care about what I say”. Then I began to listen to a short 7 minute functional meditation I created.
At the end of the meditation, I saw in my mind’s eye that even if people seem oblivious to what I have to say, they are still getting the energetic and spiritual benefits. I saw beams of soft flowing light caressing people and surrounding them with love, joy, and peace. I realized that this had nothing to do with whether people would listen to me because this work has far reaching benefits for people in general, whether they recognize it or not. There is no need to seek acceptance and reciprocation from certain people, but rather, leave it to the Universe to balance the flow of energy.
Now my inner champion has spoken! It showed me that I am making a difference and that I don’t have to be attached to how people respond to me. Instead, I can focus on the healing work I am meant to do.