In the summer 2006 I had a very interesting experience in which I would like to share in this blog.
I had purchased the audio CD “Ask and It is Given” by Ester Hicks and proceeded to listen to the audio CD. Within 20 minutes of starting the CD I felt very tired all of a sudden — like my eye lids wanted to close but I didn’t really know why. I followed my intuition by taking off my glasses and sitting quietly in my chair with my eyes closed. Then, I had this sudden urge to write for no particular reason, so I reluctantly got up from my chair to grab a notebook and a pen. I now have that original notebook in front of me and I would like to share with you what I wrote:
How do I explain the current state of being I am experiencing?
There is extreme calm and sureness that I cannot describe, it overtakes my physical form / being readily and quickly whenever I am ready.
In this state I feel love and peace. I am free of pain and fear. I recognize that it is unnecessary. My heart feels overwhelmed with joy. I use the word “overwhelmed” not in the way of explaining something that is negative or intolerable, but a sensation of overflowing peace.
Every time I close my eyes I return to this meditative state. Even as I am writing my eyes wishes to close — not out of fatigue but of necessity to stay connected to the way I feel.
My eyes cannot see, for everything is blurry, yet I continue to write without resistance in a relatively straight line. Most of what I want to communicate is how I feel. Sometimes I feel my physical form disappear in feeling and sensation with only the burning of my upper and middle back communicating with me. At this moment I do not need to be consciously aware of what I am writing. I merely have to write.”
At this time I see that my handwriting had changed from my usual neat and tidy printing to some kind of light scribble:
“I am willing to succumb to any thoughts or sensations that are overtaking my beingness. I seek to be aware of my resistance and fully trust the love and support. Questions that may have arisen from the place of fear and doubt are consciously realized and removed. I became aware of the state of nothingness, but not nothingness without the sense of love and peace. There is a sense of trance in the way I feel.
I am writing with my being, not consciously thinking or constructing thought, but merely allowing my vision to cloud over and simply be.
The eyes wishes to close again and my pen continues to move. I am resisting the urge to keep my eyes closed.
I feel energy flowing through me, but specifically in my heart. What does that mean? What is the purpose of keeping me in this state? Why did I feel the urge to write, to scribble? What is my purpose here?
Trust that you are loved, be not blinded by materialism, you will be well taken care of. You will have anything you need with much to spare. Live joyously, your purpose is to show your being to others by showing them what is possible.
Show by example, each and every moment by living in the state of high vibration.
What is this great thing/ feeling that is happening to me?
There is no forever, there is only now. Focus on being — that is what you are meant to do.
While I am copying my handwriting into text form on this blog post, I started to feel the same tired feeling on my eyelids again! I ignored that feeling this time because I really wanted to finish writing this post. I must say I am in awe of what I wrote. I really didn’t think I was this wise 😛
I had included two paragraphs in bold because I noticed that it was being written in third person and not first person, which I thought was a bit odd. Was I talking to myself or something? Or was I talking to someone else?
Maybe one day, who ever was visiting with me will visit again…
Update September 4, 2017
A decade since this first experience I realized that I had received a transmission of spiritual guidance. It was my first experience channeling spiritual wisdom. While this was for myself at the time, I have discovered that this to connect to Source / God will eventually allow me to help many people heal themselves from emotional, and health issues. Looking back, I am glad I have documented this inspirational story so many years ago. Now, I can look back and see that the Universe is always looking out for me and reaching out to me.
Here is my experience in automatic writing!
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/automatic-writing-experiences-when-spirits-write.html
I’m sure if this concerned an automatic writing experience necessarily from what I have been reading because I didn’t try to do this & had never even heard of such a thing, but I am wondering what I did experience because whatever did happen was definite nothing that I had ever experience before nor have yet to experience again…
One night around about one or two in the morning, I was home alone watching a few videos on youtube on the Illuminati in the entertainment industry and was sitting in my recliner letting mind wrap around what I had just seen, when I got this extreme feeling that I had to write something. Along with this feeling came a tightness in my throat. It didn’t hurt. It was more like pressure. Like somehting in my throat needed to come out combined with the extreme urgency to get up & write.
I didn’t make it very far before I had to stop and pen whatever was happening…
& there began a conversation… Questions & answers about ying & yang, positive & negative, quantum physics, protons & neutrons, good & bad, the universe & what my purpose was…
I was very weirded out… Oddly, I felt like I could ask questions & the answers were freely given to me…
At the end of everything, there was a dialog on my paper… (However slopping)
The next day I hesistated to say anything but ended up telling my mom about it & she said the it might have been some demonic influence so I quickly torn the pages up. (Which as I write this I regret) There were 2 pages back & front & one half page.
Interestingly enough about 6 months down the road I found the last page which I thought 4 sure I had shredded the message the stood out the most:
“The Universe inside of you…”
Which has been a reoccuring theme in my life since…
Since then a few interesting things have come about that centered around some of the things that I receive from that message…
Any answers???
Hi Crystal, Sorry it took so long to reply to your comment. The Universe is inside of you. The Universe is infinitely large and also infinitely small. We seek wisdom from external sources when wisdom are right inside our cells and the spaces in between the cells. “We have all the answers we seek” is another way of making sense of the idea that the Universe is inside of you.
In terms of what your mom’s comments about demonic experiences, I would like to comment that when a message is neutral and full of love, it cannot be from a negative source. When the message contains judgement, you know that it has been interfered with by our own thoughts and social conditioning.
I hope this helps.
i don’t have a website or anything, im sorry if my comment is not on your experience, i just have a question. my friend and i were using my ouija board and asked the spirit to blow out the candle, the candle started to flicker but not go out. so i picked up a pen and some paper and started writing circles. i never wrote words exactly but the writing became darker and became up and down scribbles. i didn’t know if that was me or not so i stopped. when i stopped it felt like somebody turned the heat on, my hands and head especially got really really hot and tingly and my felt like pressure was welling up in it all of a sudden and i started to black out so i layed down for a minute. that happened just a few minutes ago and im starting to cool down now but my hands are still a little numb and tingly. im not sure what to make of this, but my friend and i were both a little freaked out. if you could tell me something of this experience please do.
Hi Ariel,
Sorry for the delayed response, I have been away having a baby. This sounded like a scary situation. I recommend finding some answers on ErinPavlina.com. I read her blog often and she always have nice tips on how to deal with situations like yours. I have had one interesting experience that is similar. One time I wanted to move my limbs and I couldn’t for 45 minutes! I am not sure what happened either. My father asked an intuitive friend of his and his friend said that it was nothing to worry about. Maybe you can learn how to meditate and use white light to protect yourself. Just sit there, breathe calmly and imagine yourself being surrounded by a bubble of white light that repels all darkness. If I knew about hypnosis, I may go and get a session to find out from my subconscious what happened…
Hi ! Its wonderful to know that there are other people out there doing the same thing! I have been channelling spirits using automatic writing for about ten years now, I was at a very low ebb in my life but on a mission to discover why and how I could live a more spiritually fulfilling life, then Bam , it all happened. I ended up being guided to write a book ‘Searching for Mooneyes’ as he is my main spirit guide and has been with me since birth and in a previous life.
I love the messages I recieve and have the mediumistic ability to help others.
Please contact me if you get the chance it would be fantastic to connect and exchange ideas, failing that maybe you could visit my website and leave a message!
Love and Blessings
Whitefeather
Hi Angie,
Thanks for dropping by and sorry for the delayed response, I have been busy having a new baby. I checked out your website, how is your books sales going? Ever thought of just making an eBook and selling it online yourself? Cheers, May
My situation started in July 2010. I had lost a close friend of mine on my birthday, April 28th in 2010. Ron was not the most pleasant person in the world, but I knew his good and loving side. I loved him despite all the pain he put me through. When he passed I had conflicting emotions of…good riddance but I hope he is ok (meaning, I hope he is not in hell).
One day, several months after Ronnies death, I was sitting at my kitchen table writing out a supermarket list, when my handwriting got very jittery and uncontrolable. The words ” Ame, Im ok,” was written out very clearly. He told me it was Ron and he was ok. He commented on what I was wearing and the clincher was when he told me a black man was at my door and I should call him later, seconds before the doorbell rang and it was my son in law who is black. Then I knew I was talking to Ronnie. I still do my automatic writing to this day. I have accepted it, though it flipped me out at first. I have been through many, many entities and have been told many things. Much of it is nonsense. It seems there are good guys and bad guys in the spirit realm as there are here on earth. Sometimes I still question my sanity.
I have presently been told by the spirits, to stop writing. It seems I have traveled to a “bad part of town?” It has become an addiction and they seem to be getting frustrated with me, but in a kind way.
I am trying to stop. My greatest fear is that I will spend eternity with these bad people. I was told this cannot happen, I am a good person. But then why do they insist I wait a month to write and get out of the first realm? I accept what is happening, but I dont understand it and it seems no one has the answers. I have always been a believer in the afterlife but had no proof or wanted it. I was, and still am, scared to death of ghosts. This is obviously understood by the spirits I have been speaking to. As they have said, they are too far away to visit , but I am “protected” from any negative ghostly spirit visits. If what they tell me is true, I am really looking foward to being with my spiritual family. They have shared much with me, but I always want more and Im afraid I have invited rather questionable entities. I havent spoken with Ron in several months. Though occasionally I will get a “dont listen to them” or “put your pen down,” or ” no, no, no” message. Very confusing and a little scarey. I can go on and on about this. My bottom line is that there is no way these response writings are coming from me or my psychie. This is real. I never asked for communication with the afterlife. I didnt think I was capable so I never tried. The thought of it frightened me anyway. But I am very comfortable with this. It almost seems natural to me now. Ive learned Im a very old spirit who always kept in touch with my family. Ive spoken to many psychics about this and they are clearly uniformed. I wish I could learn more without bothering the spirits. I wish I could help people. But it seems I am not conditioned for that. Cayce and others have done it. Why not me? Im told Im not “cold” enough. Grrrrr. I dont know what that means and they wont elaborate. I better stop. I could go on forever on this.
Hi Amy,
Our greatest enemy will always be ourselves. My greatest enemy is myself and I am sure that this is the case with a lot of people. Channeling spirits is a great gift, but when channeling spirits comes at the expense of developing and drawing from your own wisdom, then you may have taken a bit of a detour. Being centered and grounded is the most important step to connecting with the spirit world in my opinion. You have told me a lot about what others have said to you through your writing, but what has your higher self said? Have you been drawing from your own wisdom? Recently I have been trying Bikrams Yoga and found it very helpful in getting out of my own head and becoming more centered. When learning about your own wisdom it is also good to learn to differentiate between your ego and your spirit / higher self. They are quite different. The ego is confused and scared, it experiences uncertainty and pain, the higher self is pure love and freedom. Just a thought. 🙂
Hi there would you mind sharing which blog platform you’re working with? I’m
looking to start my own blog in the near future but I’m having a difficult time choosing between BlogEngine/Wordpress/B2evolution and Drupal. The reason I ask is because your design seems different then most blogs and I’m looking for something completely
unique. P.S Sorry for being off-topic but I had to ask!
Hi Lonna,
I am using WordPress. There are many themes you can choose from for WordPress. My theme is a bit out of fashion in fact. I installed it in 2008 and I like it too much to make a change just yet. Hope this helps.
I really like the look of your website by the way. It looks really good.
Hi I tried automatic writing for the first time tonight. The pen took over and for two questions I received scribbles as answers. I’m tired & feel tingliness throughout my head and body. I feal worried and jump if I hear a sound. Before I started i wrote to my spirit guides and angels and as I felt the pen move I told myself I was in the white light. I am
Sick at the moment & on antibiotics I could have low vibration. I am wearing black tourmaline bracelet. I lit a candle and have crystals around. Am I scaring myself? Anyone else experience pen move and get scribbles what does it mean? I asked if could communicate in letters and I received no answer. I will save myself. Any other suggestions??? Thank u.
Hi Bella,
Being sick and on antibiotics does not mean you have low vibration. We can receive messages at various vibrational levels. However, how we perceive the message may be affected by our vibrational frequency. For example, you can receive a message and feel fearful about it, or feel joyful about it.
I have done scribbles before too. I’m sure it means something somewhere, however, I would encourage you to keep scribbling and ask your divine guidance to give you messages in a way you can understand.
The information usually comes in “chunks or blocks of thought form or feeling.” So, pay attention to what you are feeling, any images or thoughts arising without you have having to think about it.
Keep practicing!
Hello. I am new to this forum and have been automatic writing since November 1995. I didn’t realise that it was called automatic writing at first. I made loads of self published books out of it and it helped with mental and physical unwellnesses. I didn’t purposely contact the spirits but they came to me. I am also into crystals, astrology and plant healing. I find that the moonstone helps a lot and I find tropical plants calming.
Hi i need help from you all. I want to communicate with my bf soul. He passed away 4 months ago. N m desperate to communicate with him