Why is it so hard to say “I love you”?

Dear Universe,

What should we talk about today?

Universe: “I love you”. You say that more to your cats than the people around you.
May: I know right?! Why is it so hard for people to say “I love you”?
U: Because it makes them feel vulnerable. They are really fearing that people won’t love them back, stemming from the times from childhood and beyond (past, future, and parallel lives), where they wanted love but did not receive love in the way they wanted.

To be here (on earth) to some is the same as separating from the eternal love or the place where eternal love used to be.
From the time of “perceived” separation from the place of eternal love, we are trying to get back to that place of eternal love.
People do all kinds of things to achieve that sense of unconditional love and bliss. Some take drugs, some engage themselves in dangerous activities…some seek unrealistic expectation in relationships – trying to dictate what love should be.

In the realm of Spirit, which every individual is capable of accessing, there are no limits to time and space. You can be at one place and then “be” instantly in another space. You are omnipresent. You won’t need to go anywhere. You are everywhere and henceforth, you are always and already in the place of eternal love.

If you knew this, you no longer need to seek love from others. You already have all the love you need and more. You shall have unlimited love to give without expectations.

It is easier to say, “I love you” to your cats because you can restrict their movements by holding them and making sure that they don’t go anywhere. You know they cannot say, “I love you” back, so there is no expectation of how a cat should behave when you profess your love to it.

But with other humans, it is different, people don’t always respond in ways you expect them to and therefore, there is the possibility of feeling vulnerable…and seemingly abandoned if the response you get from the ones you love was not what you expected it to be. If you can draw love from the place of eternal love, then you would be able to say “I love you”, whenever and wherever without worrying about not receiving certain types of expected responses.

 

Unwavering Belief

I was getting ready to do my work for the day when I received this message:

As you begin your work, hold onto the unwavering belief that you can make a difference in the lives of others.

So many times I am plagued by the belief that I am not that useful or that others are more useful than me. I can see that these are fear-based, ego driven ideas to keep me safe from the possibility of failing at trying to help others.

The Universe preemptively got me in a positive frame of mind this morning!

The Galactic Janitor

Today I had a really hard time training my nanny. It was like I have to train someone from the ground up. I came back from a grocery shopping trip with some canned artichokes and she asked me, “Can you tell me where to put these cans?”
“Where do you think you would put them?” I asked, hoping to see moments of brilliance.
“Er…maybe a good place to put them would be in the fridge?” She replied cautiously.
I think I just wanted to scream.

Later at night I decided to write my Dear Universe Journal and see what my strange mind comes up with:

Dear Universe,

May: I feel so frustrated with my new nanny. How does she not know that you don’t need to put cans in the fridge?
Answer: At least she is working. You just sit around and complain about her.
M: Who is this? (The frequency seem different this time) Who are you?
A: The commander of a Star Vehicle.
M: Why are you chiming in? (This is none of your business…)
A: You have a lot of work to do.
M: What kind of work?
A: Janitorial work.
M: WuuHhhAaaT!!!
A: People call it clearing or cleaning or whatever you do for others.
M: So what am I? Some kind of Galactic Janitor?
A: Yep!
M: Hey! Why can’t I be the commander and YOU come and do some Janitorial work? Huh? Are you smarter and more knowledgeable than me or something?
A: There are no levels and comparisons in this dimension. You CHOSE to be a Galactic Janitor, don’t Blame me!
M: Huh? Am I supposed to clean up after people?
A: You need to clean more than just people! You are not that hard working you know, where are your writing and meditations?
M: I’m cleaning all the time, 24/7, even when I sleep! Give me a break!
A: You can clean better, you need to be more detail oriented when you
M: The pay for a Janitor is not exactly high…
A: No levels remember? Galactic Janitors are very well paid.
M: And what currencies do you use huh? (Still feeling like a brat)
A: You get paid in L…O…V…E! It is the Universal Currency (UC)! It comes directly from the Source and not from your clients. That’s one thing most humans have not figured out yet…
M: What haven’t they figured out?
A: The money don’t always come from clients. They try to get paid in all the wrong ways and find love in all the wrong places. The best way out of the rat race is LOVE! Love that comes directly from Source. I can guarantee that there will be no glass ceiling on that!Pumpkin Carriage
M: Is there a currency exchange place where I can convert the Universal Currency to a locally accepted currency and method of payment?
A: The Universal Currency is accepted at all locations, dimensions, and beyond.
M: Forget about the Galactic Janitorial work, I just want to sit around and watch figure skating!
A: You will have plenty of chances to do THAT! Now get back to work Cinderella!
M: Oh Man!

I guess that is what happens when I complain.