Searching for Love

Love in the CloudsRecently I have been feeling a huge wave of energy washing over me as I go about my day.  Sometimes this can be a bit annoying because I could not hold my smart phone if I wanted it to work properly.  The good part about this new surge of energy is an increase in my ability to communicate with my Inner Wisdom with greater clarity. One of the areas in my life that has taken a quantum leap is the discovery of a method I can use to guide clients to connect with their own Inner Wisdom from anywhere around the world as long as I can speak to them over the phone or Skype.

These sessions were so amazing I realized that I needed to share the results with others. The session today was one of those amazing sessions. A man in his early 50’s (whom I will call Larry) contacted me to see if he could get some greater insights into why he has not been able to manifest a life partner so far. Some of the burning questions on his mind were:

  • Why has it been so difficult to find a relationship?
  • Why does he feel like he just couldn’t get the kind of partner he wanted?
  • Why does he keep manifesting relationships with women who are more high maintenance?

During our session he first experienced a memory of relationship he had 5 years ago where he had been quite accommodating throughout the relationship. When he finally spoke his mind, she stopped talking to him. This left him feeling angry, sad and upset. He felt disappointed that he had to start all over again.

Larry then experienced a memory where he was head over heels with a woman many years ago. When he finally got the courage to ask her out, he felt that she had made up an excuse why she could not go out with him. He felt devastated and formulated the belief that he could never get the kind of girl he wanted.

As I continued to trace back memories of similar incidences in his life, he went back all the way to the time he was in Kindergarten. It was snack time and he was really excited about snack time.  The teacher he really liked had offered him a cinnamon cookie — a flavor he greatly disliked. Not wanting to upset the teacher in anyway, he tried his best to eat a cookie he didn’t like.  He ended up crying and snack time was not as fun anymore. Larry had felt like if he had told the teacher how much he disliked the cookie, she might not have liked him anymore.  So he tried suppressing his true feelings in order to please his teacher.

I then guided him to another time when something similar happened and he recalled a memory where he was a man in the 18th century being forced by his parents to marry someone he did not love.  He was angry at his parents and created the negative belief that his feelings didn’t matter and that he had to settle for less.  At this time in the session, a pre-existing cough he had got worse as he was feeling a sense of tightness in his upper chest area.

I guided Larry to the first time in his Soul’s memory when something similar happened. He recalled a time before his very first incarnation.  He really didn’t want to incarnate and resisted outside pressure for him to incarnate.  He felt like he was being over-ruled and finally gave in to the pressure while feeling angry and resentful.  He felt like he just could not get what he wanted. In that first incarnation, he was an angry person in a female body.

Given that we had found the origin where he had lost his sense of power to choose what he loved to do, I guided Larry through a process to connect with Larry’s own Inner Wisdom. Below is a snippet of my conversation with his Inner Wisdom:

May: Can you tell us why Larry was forced to incarnate?

Wisdom: Because he couldn’t progress any further in the ascension process until he incarnated. His Souls’ progression was at a standstill.

May: Can you please tell us why Larry had been unable to have a loving romantic relationship?

Wisdom: There are two reasons why he had not been able to have a loving relationship. (1) He has to realize that the partners he desired in the past were not partners he would have thrived with. Instead of going with the soul connection, he relied mostly on the physical connection. (2) He never believed in himself.  He needs to believe in himself and feel comfortable and powerful in his own essence.

May: So if Larry was willing to focus on connecting with women on a soul level and he started to shine with his true essence, then would he be able to have a loving, romantic relationship?

Wisdom: YES! Things can change in an instant! Don’t rely on the physical sense and rely on the compass in your heart and understand that there are multiple partners out there.  This isn’t supposed to be like finding a needle in a haystack. You will have choices. [With this new realization] you will look around and be amazed at what’s out there. Understanding your time in this life is short. You’re in your 50’s. When the fear comes up, you can’t let that stop you from living life.  If you want to have a partner, you need to actively participate in your own life!

May: Thank you so much for your love and guidance. Do you have any messages for May?

Wisdom: Don’t sell yourself short. You’re better at this than you think you are.

Amazingly, after the session ended Larry had no memory of ever conversing with his own inner wisdom. It was good that I took excellent notes but I know in the future I will have to look into recording these sessions even if no induction was used.  Interestingly, Larry started the session coughing a lot and ended the session not coughing much at all.  He was also pleasantly surprised at how light and relaxed he felt in his body after a 90 minute conversation.

This is so amazing! I am so grateful to the Universe for continuing to show me how I can transform the lives of other people.

Update: Nearly a year after working with me, he found confidence in himself and started dating again.

May Singing My Love Remains

This song is for those who have lost their loved ones.  It is conveying an important message. I started composing songs by the time I was a little girl (before six years old) but my mother once told me I sounded like a duck so I never thought I would be putting a video of myself singing on Youtube.

This was filmed with me singing to my classmates at the Rock The Stage Mastermind.

 

My New Mother

Rewired BrainThe last two months have been incredibly interesting and adventurous for me.  In October of 2012, my mother told me that she might be interested in learning more about the work I was doing — helping others resolve mysterious health issues.  I was super excited and yet skeptical.  She had a lot of health problems.  She claimed that she had issues with her memory, vision, digestion, elimination, weak muscles and bones (osteoporosis), and issues with sleep requiring her to take tranquilizers to sleep every night.

I began to talk about the miracles in my work when she visited me.  We didn’t have much to talk about because we didn’t share similar beliefs, but I kept trying anyways.  I knew my mother would really benefit from a session but she wasn’t going to have one, at least not from me. Family members are hard to work with.  This is because there may be some unspoken words and feelings or perhaps resentment that had pilled up after all the years of living together.  I booked a plane ticket for my mother to attend a class that will introduce her to my work.

When I first saw my mother after she had completed a course, she was so happy to see me and she tried to give me a hug.  I know this may sound like common sense for a mother to give the daughter a hug, but, the last hug I remember my mother gave me was when I was 7 years old.  Hugging is just not something we do in the Chinese culture.

I asked her how her course was and if she was able to connect with her Higher Self and she said she had a great experience. I noticed something was different about my mother.

When I saw my mother, the conversation went something like this:

“So, what did you find out from your session?” I asked.
“I don’t know for sure because I haven’t really listened to it yet.  I plan to listen to it when I have a moment.  What I remember is mostly what my classmate told me.” My mother said.
“So, what did your classmates tell you about your session?” I asked.
“When I first got there, I complained about being tired and not being able to remember anything.  I told them I couldn’t see very well and required a lot of assistance.” My mother said.
“So what did they say happened during your session? What does your Higher Self have to say about your health issues?” I asked.
“When my classmates asked the Higher Self for healing on my physical issues, it was said that they had to address the true source of why I was having these physical issues.”
“Oh! What was the true Source of all your physical issues?” I was very intrigued.
“They said it had something to do with my brain. So, the Higher Self had to rewire my brain.”
“They did WHAT?” I couldn’t believe my own ears.
“They said they had to rewire my brain.” She said while pointing at her head.
“So, what difference do you notice?” I asked.
“Well, that’s the thing, the day after we had our practice sessions, the teachewr asked the people with successful healing cases to go up to share with the rest of the class and my group went up. They told the class what happened since I still didn’t remember much from my session and one of the other classmates in the audience suddenly pointed out that I was no longer wearing my glasses. They said, ‘Didn’t you say you could not see well without your glasses? Where are your glasses now?’ And I thought to myself, Oh yeah! Where are my glasses? I guess I don’t need them anymore.
“Wow,” My own mother had a miraculous healing! “So, what do you notice now that your brain had been rewired?”
“I can remember the things I’ve learned!” She said.
“Well, I am having such a miraculous time here! It is amazing you don’t have to wear glasses anymore! On a different note, the kids are all sick back in Canada.” I was updating her on how her grandchildren were doing.
“Well…,” She said while her eyes looked upwards towards the left, “They are sick because they are not getting something they need from their parents.”
“And how did you know that?” I asked. Did she just pull that out of nowhere?
“Did I just say something? I don’t know where that came from, I just know that this could be the reason.” She said while looking at me again.

Somehow, my mother became kind of psychic.  I don’t quite know how to explain it. It was like she knew the answers to things she did not know before.  When her eyes looked up towards the left side, she seemed to have some pearls of wisdom that just came out of nowhere! Another thing she told me that just came out of nowhere was, “You cannot evade what you came here (Earth) to learn.  To do so will only cause health consequences…even death.”

The Look of Love

With a big white blanket over our heads, my four year son Dante and I laid in his bed upon his request.  He had a been fighting a cold and feeling fatigued from time to time and this was one of those moments.  At first he seemed rather amused with poking me in the eye or my ear — which cracked me up laughing, not because he was funny but because I was very ticklish.

Then he suddenly grew serious, his black crystal eyes locking on my face with an intensity I do not see every day.  I have seen that look before, not from Dante, but from men who had loved me.  I am not sure they knew they were looking at me that way, maybe if they knew, they might have tried to hide it.

To see this look from my son was heart stopping for me.  Especially because his eyes are so beautiful — so dark and shiny with lush long dark lashes.  Those eyes were so shiny I swear I could see a reflection of myself in them.  I am not trying to brag, but I can see girls falling head over heels if he was a bit older.  He already has a girlfriend in his daycare now and he hasn’t even started kindergarten.

After locking eyes with me for a few seconds, he reached out his little hand and touched me very gently on the side of my face.  How does he know? I thought to myself.  How does this four year old guy know exactly what mommy needs to feel loved?  Even daddy has problems with this some times and little Dante is a pro!

Then to top this moment off, Dante propped himself up a bit and leaned in for a little kiss.

Oh that little heart breaker.  All I could do was laugh but secretly, I really want to cry because I felt so touched.  As I am writing this, my heart still feels a bit soft — like marshmallow.

Manifesting a Soul Mate

The Intention: May will meet her soul mate in 3 months.

The year 2006 marked an instrumental chapter of my life.  It was the year I discovered the concept of manifestation and it was also the year I put my first big manifestation project to the test — manifesting my soul mate.

The date was April 19th when I visited my good friend and nursing colleague Gillian to have tea at her house.  It was one day after attending a personal development seminar when I realized I wasn’t in the space of receiving love.  I had closed my heart to the possibility of having love in my life and this had subsequently caused me to close my eyes to seeing the opportunities that might have been presented to me.

I was sitting in Gillian’s apartment sipping my tea when I said to her, “Did you know that if you write down your goals or something that you want, it might come true?”
“No, I did haven’t really thought about that idea.” Gillian said apprehensively.
“I am thinking about doing an experiment to see if this actually works.  I think I should write down what I want and when I want it.” I said.
“Well, what is it that you want?” Gillian asked.
“I would like to meet my soul mate in 3 months.” I announced.

I opened my planner to the date April 19, 2006 and wrote, “May will meet her soul mate in 3 months”.  Then, I fast forwarded to July 19, 2006 and wrote in a green pen in my planner, “May is supposed to be dating her soul mate” and left it at that.

Nothing really happened right away and I went about my daily routine.  At the end of May 2006, I was chatting with my friend Luke when he revealed that he had signed up for an account on a popular dating website Lavalife.  I asked Luke what he had put in his profile and he told me that he wasn’t going to tell me.  So I thought to myself, “Fine! Don’t tell me! I guess I am going have to go on Lavalife and try to find Luke’s profile instead”.  I proceeded to set up an account that allowed me to search for people by region and tried to find my friend for 4 days.  During the 4 days I was on Lavalife, I received smiles from 50 different guys and I thought I was spending way to much time on lavalife without much progress of finding Luke’s profile.  After 4 days of intensively searching, I did not end up finding Luke’s profile, but someone else found me instead.  I was contacted by a guy with a nickname of “Nicetallguy” who sent me a paid message saying that he was really interested in my profile and thought we had some similarities.  I was really eager to leave Lavalife since I had given up my attempt to search for Luke’s profile and thought to myself “poor guy, spent money to send me this message and I am leaving the website”.  So I wrote Mr. Nicetallguy back and told him I was really sorry that I would be leaving the website.  He gave me his msn contact and said perhaps we can chat a bit more if I was up to it.  So I added him onto my msn list feeling bad that he had spent money to contact me for nothing.

Mr. Nicetallguy did not message me right away, nor did I message him since I wasn’t actively thinking about searching for a guy (I had completely forgotten my intention to meet my soul mate).  About a week after we had been on each other’s msn list, Mr. Nicetallguy made a move.  He said “Hi” to me and we began chatting away.  What we both noticed right away was the ease and flow of how we conversed online.  The discussions were meaningful, witty, and intelligent.  I revealed to Mr. Nicetallguy that I was taking a personal development course called Landmark Education and he was really surprised when I told him this over msn because he replied, “I took Landmark Education too!”

After a week of chatting online, Mr. Nicetallguy suggested that we might consider meeting in person and I agreed.  I had decided that if I was going to meet any guy from an online website, I must make sure I am in the position that I could run off at anytime if I didn’t like what I see.  So I suggested that he should come to the weekly seminar series I was doing at Landmark Education so that I wouldn’t have to worry about entertaining him.  To ensure we had a chance to chat, I also suggested that we meet for a short coffee 20-30 minutes before the seminar begans.

The day we were supposed to meet came around and I realized I couldn’t have been in a worse shape.  I had started playing my french horn in a community band after 7 years of not playing it and I had cut my lips so badly from playing my horn that my lips were so swollen I could barely speak properly.  I was also dressed in sweats that made me look 40 lbs heavier and wore glasses with no makeup.  In hinsight I recognized that I probably did this on purpose.  I have always thought that if I was to be in a relationship, I would like the man I am with to be attracted to my personality before considering my appearance.

I found him sitting outside the building where the seminar was taking place waiting for me.  We introduced ourselves and proceeded to a coffee shop nearby to get a coffee.  Mr. Nicetallguy had a very unique name “Dobes” and he was 6’7” tall.  I suppose that was why he had given himself the nickname Nicetallguy.  I first had to explain why I couldn’t speak properly.  He asked me why I couldn’t speak properly and I started to explain that I had started playing my instrument after a long time of playing it and had really overexerted myself. He asked, “What instrument do you play?”
With a mumbling voice I said, “I play the french horn.”
He said, “NO WAY!” in disbelief, “I played the french horn too!”
It turned out that he and I both played the french horn in high school, I played in the provincial honor orchestra while he played in the youth symphony.

After our initial meeting people asked me questions like “is he cute?” and “was it love at first sight?” and I must admit, I didn’t get to see his face much.  We got our drinks and decided to walk around the block and he was so tall (I’m 5’4”) I could barely get a good look at him.  I tried to look more, but I just got a sore neck from trying.  It wasn’t really love at first sight either, we didn’t have time to chat about meaningful things before the seminar began.

It turned out that it wasn’t quite the love at first sight for him either.  He went out to lunch with his friends the day after he met me and his friend Melina asked him “so, was she cute?”, and he ended up telling Melina that I was “just average”.  Since we had so much fun chatting online, we continued to talk both online and on the phone and our conversation began to take on a deeper and more meaningful tone.  Five days after our first meeting, I was going to work my nursing shift near where he lived and he came out to meet me for lunch.  According to him, this was when he fell for me because this time, I had a cute hair-do, I replaced the glasses with contact lenses, and I was wearing scrubs.  It must be something about men and their “nurse fantasies”.

By the time I got home at night, he was eagerly asking me when he could see me next.  Feeling alarmed, I put my foot on the break and said, “hey, you are not thinking about wanting to be in a relationship are you?  I just want to be friends!”.  He told me that he did want to consider a relationship that is more than just friendship but he respected my choices and was willing to stay friends.

This “friendship” stage didn’t last very long as we grew closer and closer.  I started to find Dobes more and more attractive as we got to sit down and look at each other more.  He had gorgeous green eyes, dirty blond hair, beautiful features and a kind and gentle soul.  He was always present and had a very thoughtful way of listening to what I had to say.  One of the most important factors that alerted me to the possibility of him being “a soul mate” was the shear number of synchronicities that would occur between us.

The first time I visited his small one bedroom apartment he gave me a little tour, and there were several things that caught my eye.  When he gave me a tour of his bedroom, I noticed that he had a little stereo at the foot of his bed and on top of the stereo was a stack of CDs.  At the very top of this CD stack was the album “The Most Relaxing Classical Music Ever” and that was the same CD that I was listening to in my car while driving to his apartment.  I also noticed the french horn he had placed at the far corner of his bedroom. His french horn had exactly the same case as my french horn and his french horn was exactly the same make, model, and colour as my french horn!  What a coincidence!  Over the course of our relationship, the coincidences that frequently occurs between us never cease to amaze me.

I began asking myself the question, could he be the one?  What if he isn’t? I was concerned that if he wasn’t the one, and I started dating him anyways, I might miss out on the chance of meeting my real soul mate (see how silly I was?).  I began asking the universe for guidance, I remember writing in my journal “Universe, show me some signs of whether Dobes is the one”.  Then I had 3 different dreams in 3 consecutive nights where I had dreamed of 3 different spiritual teachers I have met that came to me in my dreams telling me “he’s the one!!”.  By July 2, 2006, three weeks after we first met at Landmark Education, we professed our love to each other.  July 19th, 2006 came around and I found my own writing in my planner in a green pen stating “May is supposed to be dating her soul mate” and feeling overwhelmed with joy that my intention had came true!  Five months later on November 5, 2006, Dobes asked me to marry him; and one year after we professed our love for each other, we were married in a beautiful ceremony at a rose garden.  Many guests have told us that when we said our vows and kissed, a brisk wind whisked by and sent hundreds of rose pedals swirling in the air like a mini rose pedal tornado.  Maybe it was the universe sending us his blessings…

Now I know dreams really Do come true, and all I have to do, is ASK for it and write it down!

Walking Together

Wedding Album Cover

The Kiss