I bet this is a hot topic for many people. Who doesn’t know someone who is trying to lose weight?
I have been thinking about losing weight for the last 18 months. Ever since I met my husband, I have been steadily gaining weight and feeling self conscious about it. It really doesn’t help that I have a twin sister who is 20 lbs lighter than me despite having a kid merely 5 months ago.
Therefore, with my focus to lose weight, I have decided to increase my level of physical activity beginning with playing volleyball twice a week starting in January of this year. I played volleyball competitively twice a week and signed up to do yoga once a week.
I remember I lost about 4 lbs and then I started gaining weight again! That’s right, I couldn’t believe it, I was playing so much volleyball and working so hard. All I wanted to accomplish is to lose weight and be like my twin sister.
Then I watched the movie The Secret again and realized what I did wrong. Instead of manifesting weight loss, I manifested weight gain because all I was focusing on is “weight”. The subcsious really could not tell the difference between me wanting weight or not wanting weight, all it knows is “I want more of something to do with weight“.
By the time I realized this and took a good look at myself in the mirror, I was horrified to note that I had gain a few more pounds that actually made me look a bit pregnant. Seriously, I thought, “what kind of weight manifesting have I done?! Now my boobs are bigger and my tummy is starting to stick out.”
I became suspiscious about the growing boobs and did a pregnancy test even though I had just gone off the pill and it turned out to be POSITIVE! I am pregnant!!
The universe has a funny way of giving me things it thinks I am asking for. Since I have been thinking so much about my weight it actually gave me a way to manifest some serious weight gain (at least 35 to 45 lbs). Thank you Universe!
I am not sure if I should consider this a manifestation success or a manifestation flop. After all, I was focusing on my weight and the universe gave me everything I focused my attention to. Now I will have to accept my growing body and forget about losing weight all together.
Sigh, so much for losing weight!